Monday, 24 February 2020

WOULD YOU WALK AWAY?



 
Hello friends,




Here is a simple flower arrangement I made with some deliciously sweet-smelling cherry blossoms that I pick along the way in my neighbourhood. As soon as I enter my kitchen, the scent is so amazing!
Speaking as a novice in flower arranging, I think everyone can be creative with flowers. I am certain that I am every professional flower arranger’s  nightmare as I just do what comes from my heart and I am aware that I break all the rules! Surely, I would love to hear your comments about it!

I am glad to be back with another extract from Chapter Five, a continuation from last week’s. It is to me the meeting centre of rivers from different streams, like a divine resolution. But you need to read it yourself and make your own decisions, just as we see Nicole making hers in this extract! Meanwhile, let’s read…




  

Eventually, after eight hours, all the mayhem caused by the nature of the emergency abated.    Only then was she able to look at her patient.
      According to handover, he was thirty five years old. She dabbed his face with a flannel. He was still unconscious and looked completely lifeless.
     The old ventilator had to do all the breathing for him. There were complex lines crisscrossing over him; ventilator tubes, multiple intravenous lines and electrodes, which attached him to the heart monitor. A chest drain was also in place because his left lung had collapsed.
    Nicole noted with sadness that throughout the numerous interventions, constant monitoring, and probing, Father Angelo Giordani lay there, motionless and defenceless, oblivious to everything.
    Although exhausted, she wondered about his life, his family and about being a missionary priest. She needed to get more information from his friend, the other stricken missionary priest, and she also resolved to find out as soon as she could if anyone had even bothered to update him on the situation.
She thought of her patient’s name – Father Angelo Marcello Giordani – and repeated it several times to herself. She was certain that she had never heard a more beautiful name. Softly, she called out to him but was aggrieved by his lack of response.
     It was Friday, January 5. As Nicole wrote the date in his nursing notes, she remembered that it was the eve of the Epiphany, when the church celebrated the visitation of Casper, Melchior, and Balthasar, the three wise men (or the Magi) from the East, who, by following a star, were led to the Christ Child in Bethlehem. Nicole wondered what became of their lives after their discovery of Christ.
    Sorrowfully, she pondered over the destiny of this priest, who had come dramatically, from a different East, by a very different method and in a very different manner.
    Nicole was scheduled to be off for the next six weeks as she had outstanding annual leave. This meant that her leave days would more than cover the one month’s notice she was required to work before her planned resignation.
    The letter!
    She suddenly remembered! Putting her hand into her pocket, she took out the resignation letter, which she had written earlier that very day. With the letter in her hand, she slowly looked up. And for some moments she stood, painfully deliberating in silence, whilst sadly studying Father Angelo.
   The ventilator was making his every breath; the beeping of the cardiac monitor was monitoring his every heartbeat.
   The choice was entirely hers. She could choose to walk away from it all and never come back…Carefully, she wiped away the sweat that trickled from his dark brown hair. He had short black stubble around his mouth and over his chin, which extended to the sides of his face. She found herself looking into the face of abject hopelessness
    Would there be anyone willing to sacrifice their time and remain by his side and care for him from their heart, here in this place?
   As she intensely deliberated over this, she instinctively became extremely concerned and even protective. It was all too clear that she could no longer resign.
    She knew that she could not leave him.
   “Heavenly Father,” she prayed, “You brought this priest son to me at the time of my weak and most miserable moments and put me in this position where I find no strength to walk away from him. But what then, my Father – what guarantee do I have that if I decide to remain here at St Michael’s for his sake, that you will also allow him to remain in the land of the living for my sake?”
Sighing and turning back to her patient, she said sadly but firmly, “Father Angelo, I can never leave you! I pray that it will be the same for you.”
    A quick decision was made. Glancing once more at him, she took a deep breath, tore up the resignation letter and threw the crumpled up shreds into the bin. She made the mental note to phone home to tell her mother that she was staying at the hospital overnight. She prayed inwardly that the phone would be working. Thankfully, her two little girls were spending the weekend with Samantha, her aunt. Her seventeen-year-old twin brothers were due to join them the following day.
Yes, she thought she would linger on and make sure the antiquated ventilator did not pack up. For the sake of Father Angelo, she would not resign.
    She would not walk away.

***

 “Nurse, Nurse Nicole, my apologies!”
    Nicole turned to see the Franciscan priest friend enter with the other two Portuguese medics from Mozambique. He was still clutching the small bag, looking at her with moist, red eyes. Wordlessly, she beckoned them in.
    For some time, they stood around Father Angelo, taking in all that was happening to their friend, from head to toe. Their look of compassion and sorrow was immeasurable. They stood in silence blinking back their tears. Nicole watched, with eyes resting on each one of them in turn and finally moving back to the patient.
    When she looked up again, she saw all three pairs of eyes looking at her. She took the Franciscan’s hands in hers and held them tightly. He responded by grasping hers for some time and then he tearfully raised her hand to his lips.
   “Nurse Nicole!” he acknowledged in an unspoken bond. The two medics repeated his actions, saying her name in the same manner.
   After some time, in reasonable English, he explained, “Please excuse me, Nurse Nicole, I have to leave my brother, Padre Giordani…Angelo. I, er…have no means to remain. There is no one else except myself in charge of the mission. In the morning, Epiphany, I have to go back to receive truck with food to feed the mission children or … or they starve and much worse, tomorrow it is weekend. Forgive me…”
   He looked straight into her eyes. “Forgive my, er…impudence, even presumption…I wrote on hospital document for, er… name of Next of Kin, I wrote: first, Nicole Anderson then, second, myself, Padre Carlos Rodrigues, because I am now going back to Mozambique.”
   He awaited her response and seeing her nod in acquiescence, he breathed a sigh of relief and continued, “He has only one living blood relative – his mother, Sofia. She is in Italy. Not so well you see. His father is dead, brother is dead – younger brother – motorbike accident, some years ago. So now when I go – when we go,” he indicated to the two other medics, “he will have only Nurse Nicole Anderson!”
   He turned to his companions and, in Portuguese, he interpreted this solemnity. They, in turn, nodded in acknowledgement. He continued with the same seriousness, “Nurse Nicole Anderson, I saw everything you did out there! I saw you make Sign of the Cross on our Angelo. Ah! I saw!” He pointed expressively to his eyes.
   “And I knew. I knew your heart. You will look after our Angelo. You see, our Angelo is so special, a true brother. Padre Angelo and myself, we trained at the same seminary in Rome. I always tell him: I always say, ‘Angelo, your father may be Italian and your mother may be, er …Scottish-Italian but you are more Portuguese like me.’ Myself, I am from Lisbon, Portugal.”
   Nicole smiled at hearing this. “My father was Scottish,” Nicole stated.
   Padre Carlos’ eyes lit up. He translated what she said to the other two medics with such joy. “Ah! So you, too, are Scottish! Like our Angelo! And what is the other part?”
   “Zulu. My mother’s father was Zulu and my mother’s mother was Scottish. Complicated ingredients.”
   “Zulu-Scottish!” he grinned and slapped his hand joyfully over his brown habit and repeated, joined by the other two.
   “Scottish-Zulu! My first time to hear!” Padre Carlos shook his head. I always thought Angelo was the strange one: Italian-Scottish. Scottish-Italian. But Zulu-Scottish! Scottish-Zulu! This is wonderful! An answer to prayer!” He looked at his companions and then back at her. “You are both Scottish blood. Your blood and Angelo… the same. Perhaps even the same clan!” They all laughed.
   “So now, Nurse Nicole, you are truly Next of Kin.” He became very solemn. “This man, this priest, is your flesh and blood!”
   He turned to the little bag. “This is all his possessions. You keep. I already wrote it down in the office of the matron. Here is his most important possession – his crucifix. Please, please put it back on him when all this goes.” He indicated to all the electrodes and tubes on Father Angelo’s chest.
“The Franciscan habit… you keep! I am sorry, it needs a wash.”
   He put his head to one side apologetically. “That’s Franciscan earthly treasure – after Bible, crucifix and rosary.”
   From a green plastic bag, he extracted a neatly folded purple garment, which lay in one corner of the bag. “Then next, so important, is this! Priestly stole!So important! Nurse Nicole. You must understand the mission of a priest, like Christ, in union with proclaiming the Gospel, He came to set captives free – with His Blood.”

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The question I am leaving with after reading this passage is: Would you choose to walk away or stay when God places a certain responsibility in your hands? This passage touches my heart as it shows how God’s will operates in ways more complex than we can perceive.
Cheers!

Olivia




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